(Source: soopermeanie)
(Source: soopermeanie)
It’s awesome when there are people who are not that close to you and you barely talk to them but you can look up to. You find in them courage and determination that you want to see in yourself. Inspiration.
Just when everyone else is restless and anxious, I have already calmed down. And I turn to this part of one of my favorite books.
#245. Never cut what can be untied.
I’ve realized many things today. I’ve realized just how my life goes. I knew what’s going to happen already but even if I tried to prepare myself, it still struck me. I’ve always been a person who does what is expected of me. I’ve always taken what others would believe is the best. I’ve always wanted to please people who didn’t really matter. I’ve always been careful and wanted everything perfect just so I wouldn’t disappoint others. I’ve always cared what others would say. And just now I realized, what the hell was I thinking?!
And now I say, “No one’s going to live my life but me. And I actually think it’s not selfish to do WHAT I want especially when all along I’ve been merely doing things what I thought and what they thought was right. I could never ever please everybody. There will always be those who will say bad things about me and judge me. And it’s even funnier that the people who have the most to say about you are the ones who knows least of you. It’s right when someone told me ‘Those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.’ And I have the people closest to me who believes and will always support me. I know they want me to be happy and I’m taking a step to be. This time I want to take things on my own pace. So what if it would take me longer than usual? I would still get there. I think it’s just time to focus on the things that matter. I think it’s time I think of myself. I know it’s not easy because of those things that I’m used to. But I’ve been pushing myself too much. I’m going to slow down, maybe pause for quite some time but definitely not going to stop. And I won’t give up on the things that make me smile.”
And oh, (pardon me for the language but)
PROPRIETY BE DAMNED.